Afterward

After the big graduation I am feeling a bit older. Now, I realize that there is no way to go back in time, and I am not sure I'd want to relive everything anyway. Still there is a certain amount of realization on my part that I am going to get old, and I am going to see people before me that I care about die for various reasons, nothing can stop that. God has appointed unto every man one death.

My #3 daughter has graduated, and has done very well in school. I regret that I am unable to give her the money she needs to go to college. I regret that she is going to have to work until she can acquire her own financial aid. That hurts me. That cuts me like a knife because I think about all of the times I squandered away what I had for a few selfish earthly pleasure.

My oldest is now trying to get my grandchildren out of foster care and with family. I am proud of her, and I pray for her success. In that, I am further regretful that I am unable to get them out due to my past. Everyone has a past, but one day I shall write a book about mine, so that perhaps someone might see it and think before they act.

Is there a mafia element in this country today. I believe so. I don't know nor want to know where , when, and all of that. It seems my #2 daughter has been rumored to be mixed up with someone that may be part of such a thing. I hope she gets her marbles back before she loses all she has.